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Update 9.15.17

Alright, I just want to go over my last post since it left a lot of people shook. I'll first go over some common questions that I was getting asked then we'll review together why I'm writing this blog.

  Frist question: 'Are you okay?' or 'Hey, how are you?' I'm fine... Okay I guess, sometimes. Right now 9.15.17 I'm feeling a little stressed, but overall fine. When you're talking to a depressed person texting them for one day doesn't really... hmm how should I say, reassuring them that they have a support system. When I was getting all these text messages that's when I knew that these people had read my blog. I had a feeling that had I not wrote what I was feeling no one would... have listened? I mean I'm glad I wrote it, I'm not ashamed of it. This topic is something that isn't talked about that often and I feel like it should be.

  Second question: 'Are you being serious?' or 'This is just a cry for attention.…
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Update 9.6.17

I didn't know what to talk about since I haven't been doing much to update you. But I think I might have something to talk about now. Betrayal. Hurt. Anger. Trust issues.

  Some pretty heavy stuff right? Yeah I know, but with some recent shitty "events" as we'll refer to them have happened. Events that I'm not okay with. So as we all know or maybe have figured, I have trust issues. This was and has been caused from moving a lot as a child, knowing my real dad didn't want me and of course the Cherry of it all, heart break.

  With the moving I don't blame my parents for that, we had to move. But not having the same friends all the time was pretty shitty and going into middle school or high school where everyone knew each other where I had to start from scratch sucked. But I'm over it and I've learned how to make friends. But now as I get older I try not to get close to anyone in fear that I'll move or they'll move away. I like keeping…

Update 8.27.17

So I've been getting a lot of questions as to how I take care of my hair and what makeup products that I use. Honestly I never really thought of my blog turning into the direction of this becoming into just a beauty blog. I mean of course I'm going to answer the questions you have regarding what I use, I just never figured anyone would be remotely interested. 
  Well, where to begin... I guess we can start with hair since that shouldn't take too long. Or at least I hope it won't.
  So I use several different products now that my hair is blonde, and I'm thinking about possibly going lighter. I try to use as many hydrating products as well as items that are going to help keep my blonde hair looking fresh and not looking brassy. When I did get my hair dyed the first time going blonde it was more of a caramel warm blonde and when I went in for a second session we kept it kind of in that same caramel tone. I use a combination of products to keep my hair at its healthi…

Update 8.22.17

So I'm starting to see a lot more readers here on my blog, which is weird because I never figured my life to be interesting. I've gotten a lot of messages on my IG to do a Q&A or I guess do the "Get to know me tag." So we'll just jump right into it! Name: Chanel Nickname: Bunny Age: 24 Zodiac: Aquarius  BirthMonth: January Ethnicity: Filipino and White Favouritecolor: Blue FavouriteFruit: Peaches! FavouriteSeason: Fall  Favourite TV show: I really love The Office and I always refer to it in everyday life. I also like Parks and Rec and Community What TV show would you recommend to everyone to watch: The Office, Parks and Rec and Community FavouriteBooks: This one is kind of hard for me to pick, buutttt all of the Harry Potter books, To all the Boys I've loved before (books 1-3), Fruits Basket manga but I didn't like how it ended, and Kitchen Princess manga FavouriteFlowers: I really love Dahlia's I specifically like the peach or pink/white colored ones Favour…

Update 8.8.17

Ever since I was little my papa (grandpa) would always make me hot chocolate when I was sad. This year when things when I would get sad, instead of my papa making me hot chocolate it was me. 
  This year I celebrated a lot of holidays with my solo mug of hot cocoa, this was the first year I didn't get a sign birthday card or my birthday call. Fourth of July was always our favorite to spend together, lighting fire works spending the day our beautiful home in Gilroy and me playing with the cats. But the thing I miss the most besides drinking hot chocolate and spending holidays with him is that I'll never hear him call me sweetie again.    It's been almost a year since he's passed and I miss him so much. August is going to be read hard.

Update 8.5.17

Done. Officially done. I know I wrote about how I was dropping her, dropping her as a friend. But it was hard to do so. She and I were friends for so long... I just couldn't I kept making excuses to be her friend still I wanted the friendship to get better. But it's not going anywhere.

  I've had a lot of friends tell me that I'm not getting anything out of this friendship. That she uses me, that she's only there when she has no one else. Which I've noticed, she only texts me when she's bored or when she doesn't want to hangout with her step sister or her cousins. I just can't do it anymore, I need to be around friends who are going to be there for me.

  She doesn't know I have depression of anxiety, it's not something to typically advertise you know? But she was telling me her opinion about people who have it and she said, that people with depression and talk about killing themselves should just do it. She said that she would have the kni…

Update 7.30.17

Lately I've been getting told I've changed A LOT. But honestly I haven't changed not really. I'm still the same anime (anything nerdy to be honest) loving, snarky asshole I've always been. I feel like people are saying I've changed is because I'm becoming more "involved" if you want to use that word.

  What I mean by involved is going out more, yes I know I've been a straight up party girl for the past two years now. But what I mean by going out more I mean working out a lot more, going to events with my friends. Making new friends and becoming closer to my moms side of the family. Or we'll I think I'm getting closer to them? I don't know. They still don't invite me out anywhere. I was talking with my mom about it and she said that she never got invited to anything either. She then told me that if I see all of them hangin out I should just go. Pretty much inviting myself... But if I don't get an invitation in the first pl…