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Update 5.25.17

Where to start, where to start....

 Well lets start off with hi, its been a while. Everything in my life so far has been slowly getting better. A couple of negative aspects still happened in my life like my best friend moving to a different state and a guy I though who really liked me just as much as I liked him broke my heart.

 Now this isn't going to be a post about my heart break because honestly the way he was, was just way to confusing that I get headaches from talking about it. I really felt like we had a good connection but I guess that wasn't even enough.

 Anyways, I'm getting caught up on my bills. Need to pay my car insurance and car payment soon. I have to get new tires so I'm going to be set back on money for a little bit. But that's okay, my money is going to my bills and that's what should matter most.

 I haven't been going to the gym as often as I should but today my sister and I spent like two almost three hours. I don't really have a wo…
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Update 4.18.17

Hey again, long time no talk right? So last time I wrote I was in the middle of my car being repossessed while I was on holiday. Some crazy drama right? Well its nothing that I can't handle though. At first it was really stressful it really was a learning experience. Something I hope to never go through again and hope it never happens to my friends or family either. Through break downs, screaming and crying  I finally got my car back. I have such a great support system that I can lean on and I couldn't be more thankful to have them.

Everything in my life right now is just so stressful, family, friends, and love life. Sometimes I wish I could just pause everything and just have a moment to breathe.

I still feel like I'm trying to figure out who I am, or what I want to do with my life that is. It fucking sucks honestly, I get scared sometimes. Scared I wont know what I'll do with the rest of my life how I'm going to survive. I know I'll find my 'calling'…

Updates 3.16.17

Hey guys sorry for not updating last time about me going to the gym and meeting the trainer. A lot has been going on that's in my life that's been keeping me from being able to go to the gym. I've been having a rough time with my depression and recently shit happened with my car so now I don't really know what to do.

Picture this, waking up to a beautiful morning, telling yourself everything is going to be a great day. Makeup on point, hair beautifully kept then you go outside to go about your day and a bird shits all over your face. That's literally my life right now.

My dad's job relocated him to Tucson, Arizona last year and my sister is going to college in Tucson as well. My mom is finishing up her schooling here in California and once shes done with that shes going to be moving to AZ. I will still be staying in California because my friends, boyfriend as well as job is out here, I don't have my own place but I'll be staying with my grandma. I want …

Why hello there

Hi! Chanel here, and this blog is going to be about me. Why? Well because I have nothing better to do besides write about myself. No, only joking. This blog isn't just about me its about my friends and my family as well, the drama that goes on, me surviving it etc.

I'd like to talk about the first steps that I took today to help with my life. Now, my life isn't "shitty" meaning that its not as bad as I personally perceive it to be. However I have had shitty moments in my life, but I mean come on who hasn't? Now the steps I took today to improve on my life was getting a gym membership, I know, I know. Big whoop a gym membership BAF (Basic As Fuck) however I did this because not only do I want to get back in shape to what I use to look like, lets just say that I'm tried of some people calling me fat. Now get this, I'm not fat in fact I'm only 20lbs heavier than what my ideal weight is suppose to be at. I'll get into the whole "fat" sto…