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Update 6.13.17

  Jesus, it's been a while since I last updated. Sorry for the lack of posts, I've just been trying to figure out where exactly I want my career to go... that is if I have a career?

  Okay, so I never really planned my future, my bad. But honestly, I never thought I'd get this far in life. Growing up I figured I'd be married by now with kids because that's what I deemed as "normal" or honestly I didn't think I'd live this long. The more I think about it though... I'm having way to much fun doing what I'm currently doing. Which is dancing the night away with close friends, shopping, partying etc. basically being a free spirit.

  Recently I've been focusing more on my IG (Instagram) making it look more... professional... if that makes sense? I don't know, whatever, I'm trying to get my art noticed. The way I dress, the way my photos are taken, makeup etc. growing up I always had a thing for being behind a camera, filming, taking photos whatever. But I never made anything of it. See growing up my parents were supportive but... maybe a little too supportive? I know like is that even a thing? Well, they wanted me to basically be the best. They got excited but, growing up no matter how motivated I got about things I would suddenly become unmotivated. Like I had a YouTube channel growing up. I made it during the time when Michelle Pham just made her Lady Gaga video. That's a hella long time ago. Now my channel was made to keep in touch with a girl who was my best friend at the time but we got older and went our separate ways. I really could have made something out of my YouTube channel though. Everyone has vlogs and story time blogs and that's basically what I was doing. I stopped filming because my family made fun of me. I was already the black sheep of the family and I was tired of everyone referring to me as the family weirdo just because they didn't understand me.

  So, I'm starting to build my IG to go along with my blog and to kind of go with my YouTube? I don't know I guess I'm over thinking it. I just have to go with the flow... be myself... right? Sometimes I feel like if I act like too much of myself everyone will think I'm weird. Well I mean it doesn't hurt to try... right?

  Recently I became a brand ambassador for Sand Cloud and I love it! I have a few other brand reaching out to me to be a part of their ambassador crew as well. So great things are happening and they're going to keep happening! I just have to keep staying positive and know that I'm going to be successful.

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