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Update 7.16.17

Loss of friends to a gain of friends.

  Lately I've been placed with challenges in friendships that have been making me question if I should continue being said persons friend. They know who they are and they know what they're doing.

  If you're reading this, this is how I feel. If you're offended, I can't apologize for speaking my truth.

  So we've been friends for quite a while, since high school you know? She's my best friend... probably soon to be WAS my best friend. See friends are always suppose to be there for one another no matter what. Ride or die. Period. End of story. Of course we'll eventually go into our own careers, into our own families as we get older but the friendship is still there. We'll sill know we have one another. At least that's how I think a friendship should work.

  This girl I've been friends with for a long time has taken upon herself to choose dick over friendship. I know I mentioned above as we grow older we'll drift into our own families and do our own thing. However she's not getting married nor is in a relationship with this current guy we're talking too. We're going to give some code names so the girl Im talking about well call her... "Amanda" and the guy we'll call him "Kyle"

  So Amanda has ditched me before for dick twice, two different guys. As she and I fought over it she even told me how finding a relationship is more important to her than friendship and how I should come to understand that. Look I get it, we all want to be loved and accepted by someone if we can't do it our selves. However like what RuPaul says; "If you can't love yourself, how in the hell can you love somebody else." I've told her this before time and time again. Telling her that these guys she's talking to are just playin her. A lot of other people I turn to for help tell me just to let her fall but I'm the type of person who I don't want to see my friends hurt.

  Last night I realized that maybe this friendship isn't for me anymore, I've talked to a lot of people about this situation and they all keep telling me the same thing. Amanda ONLY look a out for herself and no one else. Amanda will only do something for you if she can get something out of it. I've tried giving Amanda chances but it doesn't seem like she wants to change to help herself. She's just chasing guys left and right and loosing her power to them. And I know for a fact these guys realize it, and I feel like her and Kyle are going to end in a pretty story. If it does go well for her, good for her. But I can't be her friend anymore. I was right to have cut her off in the first place, I should have never reconnected with her.

  If you're reading this and you're mad or offended, I can't apologize for speaking my truth. You're just not someone trying to better their life. I need to sourround myself with strong minded women. I need to be around women who are successful and continue to strive for more success. I need to sourround myself with friends who care for my interest as well. I need to be with friends who aren't fake.

  I know this is a harsh blog post but I need to vent somewhere. And every time I talk to Amanda she shuts down and doesn't listen. I'm tired on wasting my advice on someone who isn't going to listen.


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